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2009-12-22T21:33:00.001+08:00

MUSIC HANGOVER GIG PHOTOS!

2009-12-20T20:15:00.002+08:00

Call it faith

2009-12-18T21:39:00.001+08:00

Even if we exchange one thousand texts and mails, we'll never even move 1 centimater closer..
That is why, we fall apart like cherry blossoms in spring... 5 Centimeters Per Second

GIG GIG GIIIIGGG

2009-12-18T21:09:00.000+08:00

TODAY's GIG ONE FUCKING FUN!!

will tell you guys another day!!!

Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei

2009-12-16T23:52:00.000+08:00

Goodbye, Mr Despair

I'm in DESPAIR!! THE WORLD!! IS IN DESPAIR!

2009-12-15T21:06:00.002+08:00

"Do you know? The speed at which cherry blossoms fall... In that moment, I thought I knew... where her heart lay. At what speed must I live... to be able to see you again?"
-5 Centimeters Per Second

I want you to want me.
I want you to like me.
I want you to love me.
I want you to notice me.
I want you to hug me.
I want you to kiss me.
I want you to hold me.
I want you to keep me.
I wish you would.
Because...
I want you
I like you
I love you
I notice you
I want to hug you
I want to kiss you
I want to hold you
I want to keep you
and I definitely want to make you happy for the rest of your life

Seems like everything has lost it's shine

make believe

2009-12-13T15:00:00.000+08:00

Change

2009-12-13T14:47:00.000+08:00

Everyone is watching, everyone is waiting, everywhere we look now, all there is is hating
We just have no tolerance, we don't compromise, all we are is worthless objects, in our own damn eyes
Caring for each other, just does not exist, all we want to do is solve our problems with our fists....
So let's change this, rearrange this, don't contribute, try to change it
Be forgiving, to all living, because life's too short to hold a grudge for time, please just try...
Everyone is watching, everyone is waiting, no one's even hopeful, everyone's so jaded
Good times never come and bad times always seem to last, everything's so screwed up cause we live our lives too fast...

I... lo.. nevermind

running trails

2009-12-12T20:49:00.000+08:00

あなたがいなくて寂しいです

Today

2009-12-10T20:59:00.003+08:00

Me, Fir and P went out to check out some guitars and stuff

Went to Davis Guitars to chekc out my LTD Ex-Avatar, and it costs 1250 BUCKS.
I'm gonna have to work hard to save up another 1000 dollars!
WORK WORK WORK!

Fir bought his guitar strings, Regular Slinky Ernie Ball ($6.50)
P bought his bass pedal, Electro-Harmonix Bass Blogger ($135)
and I bought my guitar pedal, Boss Metal Core ML-2 ($150)

WOW! I didn't wanna buy it but I was too tempted!
Then we went to Macs to eat and headed home.

Into Your Arms

2009-12-09T18:22:00.001+08:00

There was a new girl in town
She had it all figured out (had it all figured out)
Well I'll state something rash
She had the most amazing...smile.

I bet you didn't expect that
She made me change my ways (she made me change my ways)
With eyes like a sunset, baby
And legs that went on for days

I'm falling in love
But its falling apart
I need to find my way back to the start
When we were in love
Things were better than they are
Let me back into...
Into your arms.
Into your arms.

She made her way to the bar
I tried to talk to her
But she seemed so far (she seemed so far)
[Into Your Arms Lyrics On http://www.elyricsworld.com/ ]
Out of my league
I had to find a way to get her next to me

I'm falling in love
But its falling apart
I need to find my way back to the start
When we were in love
Things were better than they are
Let me back into...
Into your arms.
Into your arms.

Oh she's slipping away
I always reach when I'm thinking of words to say
Oh the things she does
Make it seem like love
Just a game (just a game)
And I like the way we play

I'm falling in love
But its falling apart.
I need to find my way back to the start (x2)

When we were in love
Things were better than they are
Let me back into...
Into your arms
Into your arms.

Into your arms.
Into your arms

君に届け

2009-12-08T18:17:00.002+08:00

I'm trying to reach you... but it's hard.. you're dense.. and you're innocent.
I'm the one whom you should avoid because we won't last long.
I just wish i could say "わたしは、あなたが好きです"

Jamming

2009-12-08T18:12:00.004+08:00

Today Ergo Proxy went to beats for a 2hour jam session

with guess Micheal Ambrose and Nicholas Phang

and I have a feeling, we'll fucking own the stage on 18th dec! Cool huh!
We managed to complete all the songs with success! and I completed my solos!

and I also bought my Black Rock Shooter shirt already
Tmr (Wednesday) 6pm I'mma go collect my K-On Mio Rock Tie!
Yeah.. Anime FTW

Anime + Screamo = Pwnage

Haha

2009-11-29T19:58:00.002+08:00

Working sucks, but I try to stay. Hope tomorrow, I would get my pay!

Damn can't wait to buy that Black Rock Shooter shirt and those new Converse Shoes! All for the gig's sake!
I need to find a suitable pair Converse shoes for me though.
I changed some stuff in my blog as well.

The Closeness

2009-11-14T08:58:00.001+08:00

The closeness that I get from you is like the feeling of the first man to walk the moon, and its so unreal, but I suppose you don't have a clue. The city sleeps and so do you, but my God, I'm wide awake and I'm watching you, and its so surreal, but it feels so real... to me~

today

2009-11-12T19:28:00.002+08:00

I hanged out with Trisha!
fun la
We watched this movie called Paranoaml Activities... not a fancy movie
it's like freaking anti-christ... But i know things like this won't happen if you really have faith in God
lol
anyways like yeah! fun to hang out with Trisha! den I saw Ms Xu! (my form teacher) and her boyfriend! haha I was like "HEY MS XU" she's like " OH HI!"
ah well

Music Hangover (19th December)

2009-11-06T00:46:00.000+08:00

ATL (My band) will be performing for a gig.
If you love Clement Aiden, and is his friend and wants to see him perform .. then COME!!! I'll be waiting with my guitar!!

ATL is
Azneil - Screams, Lead Vocals
Firdaus - Guitar, Backup Screams
Clement A. - Guitar, Backup Screams, Clean Vocals
P - Bass, Clean Vocals
Khai - Drums
with Aqul from Lyssa's Requiem as Guest Screamer/Vocals

Lights Out presents Music Hangover
A two day event on 12th december and 19th december
We'll be performing at Gossip Bar (Park Lane Mall; Brief walk from Dhoby Ghuat Station) on the 19th of December

Oh and come and show your support for us!!
We're a Post-Hardcore band (Something like the new Red Jumpsuit-Apparatus mixed with Alesana and Escape the Fate)

Each tickets only cost 8 bucks and for 8 bucks you can watch other bands perform too. Each band performing for 30 mins.

~::Details::~
Date: 19th December 09; Saturday
Location: Gossip Bar (Park Lane Mall)
Time of Gig:
Time of Our performance:

Featured Band: Vision Eyes (From Indonesia)

Other bands include: ATL, Melancholic Bliss, Phantom Renegade and more...

Issue of tickets will be out soon, so be patient!

FOR ENQUERIES! CONTACT 90991469 (Firdaus) or Me

http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/event.php?eid=163329852658&ref=nf

Blogging seems to be

2009-11-01T22:19:00.000+08:00

more boring nowadays.. blog when no one reads lol
Contents are just so boring.

Life

2009-10-31T21:10:00.000+08:00

It doesn't matter to me if life suck or not...
All I know is
I've a God I Worship
I've a Life to Live
I've a Dream to Accomplish

and I do not care if the fuckin' world is against me, because in the end, I'm their wrong target.

Don't Worry I'll Catch You When You Fall

2009-10-24T19:58:00.001+08:00

Here's my advice: Trust me

In Loving Memory of Aiden

2009-10-22T22:40:00.001+08:00

You said yourself before
Where are you?
I'm needing you much more
I bet you never knew

And now everything
is gonna fall apart
I need you here
not just in my heart

This wasn't how it's supposed to be
[In loving memory]
And now I'm torn with misery
[In loving memory]
I won't forget you please don't me
[In loving memory]
This wasn't how it's supposed to be
[In loving memory]

You said yourself before [fore]
Where are you?
Face down on the floor
I bet you never knew.

And now everything
is gonna break again
If it just began
why did it have to end?

This wasn't how it's supposed to be
[In loving memory]
And now I'm torn with misery
[In loving memory]
I won't forget you please don't me
[In loving memory]
This wasn't how it's supposed to be
[In loving memory]

It won't go away
It won't go away
It won't go away
It won't go away

It won't go away
It won't go away
It won't go away
It won't go away

This wasn't how it's supposed to be
[In loving memory]
And now I'm torn with misery
[In loving memory]
I won't forget you please don't me
[In loving memory]
This wasn't how it's supposed to be
[In loving memory]

KYUN!~

2009-10-20T23:12:00.000+08:00

I think I'mma fall in LOVE!
maybe not.. who cares?

and FUCK KOREAN MUSIC, FUCK ALL THOSE BOYGROUP SHIT!

But anyways, O Levels are coming soon, I know emotions are developing. I gotta relax and start studying more nao!

Enma Ai FTW BTW

Anime Festival Asia

2009-10-11T15:06:00.003+08:00

I think I may be going.. somehow.
Many of the people I know are going. Should I go? I don't know, but I'm not going to cosplay or fanscream at concerts, rather, I shall go there to get my K-ON! TIE! if they sell it. But I hope they do, and I also hope they sell other cool stuff. Japanese stuff are always better than korean stuff, don't know what they will sell but I'mma buy cool assesories. Looking how you want is being who you are! Who says people who are anime otaku can't be in a rock band? Haha I'll be the first, or maybe. But yeah I mean, I'm sick of Skinnies + Band Shirts all the time. It's time I mix and match! Get some cool coloured stuff, bright colour stuff I mean, or maybe a black shirt with an Anime character drawn in neon colours! OMG that's so rad, or is it?

I'll never cosplay though, neither will I crossdress or dress like some visual kei guy. I'll be my old self with a bit of everything! Weird for a person like me, but I feel so, "OMG I'M EVERYTHING!"

I mean, be positive, why so negative? I don't really care what others say anymore because this goes to show I'm a good guy and the rest are BAD GUYS! *takes out kunai and stab them*
I think the Naruto Shippuuden series is getting too long.. but anyways some of the people are gonna cosplay.. wonder what the hell they even wanna look like.
One guy said he's gonna be Itachi, can he? Maybe

But anyways O's are coming and stuff I needa mug more.

Note to Self

2009-10-02T23:13:00.001+08:00

Note to self:

Best Movie I've Seen :
The Girl Who Leapt Through Time & Spirited Away
Best anime : Clannad, Hajime no Ippo (Boxing anime), Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann, Code geass, GTO (Great Teacher Onizuka), Ouran High School Host Club, Welcome to the NHK, Lovely Complex, School Rumble, Ghost Hunt, Soul Eater, Kuroshitsuji, D.Gray-Man (MY TOP FAV), Elfen Lied, xXxHoLiC, Rurouni Kenshin, Shugo Chara, Special A, Itazura na Kiss, Gungrave, Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge, Full METAL PANIC, Full metal Alchemist, Fate/Stay Night, Initial D, Blood+, Darker Than Black, Zero No tsukaima & Black Jack

Hmmmm

2009-09-27T18:19:00.001+08:00

I feel weird. I don't know how to feel. But I hate the feeling of not knowing anything. The feeling that will either make you happy or sad when you know the outcome.
I don't know what to do or say. I don't know how I should address a letter to my generation. People always said "Sing it in person". But is it that really easy? Is it always worth it? Do they open up when you do? Will she? Will they? Will you?

Why do I feel like you're not worth my time? Or either I'm not worth yours. Why do I feel like my life is going down anyway? What is this feeling? I don't know. Who am I? Who are you? How can I help? How can I continue living with no risks? Everything seems so blur so unusual, but I know that if I don't do it, if I don't get to work, I know, I won't get it. Can I multitask? Will I get through? Everything comes with a prize, but everyone else seems to be happier than me. Everyone seems to be able to live a life capable of doing more, capable of doing what they really want.

I don't know how I should feel.

EHHH TEEE ELLL

2009-09-25T22:44:00.002+08:00

Today my band ATL and some other friends went for a jam session today!
ATL:

Azneil
Firdaus
P
Khai
Clement

Others:

Nicholas Phang
Christopher Thein

Met P and Fir at Hougang Station. During that time when they are not with me, on my trip to Hougang Mall Interchange/Station; I have a feeling many many of the girls there are staring at me. I don't know what for but is that their first time seeing a rocker kids? Don't tell me they think I'm emo.

Met Azneil and Khai at Farrer Park. Great to see my bandmates again. I love them, we're According to Love, what do you expect?

Met Nicholas and Christopher at Farrer Park too. We went to the jamming studio. Seven of us, the odd one is me, because I don't smoke ._.
Jammed some songs! had some fun, messed around. Man I really wish I had straplocks to fucking make my guitar not come out when I flip it. But today's session was "okay", all of us was rusty. Can't believe I played the There's No Sympathy For the Dead solo better on the Epiphone SG Special than on my own. But I believe it's the amp that was awesome and was the one that gave the great sound.

Jamming ended and followed the guys around and then I went to church. Felt abit pissed, because I feel rather lonely and non-acceptant.

Went home.

Wonder where is that person now.

You're not a real music fan if...

2009-09-24T13:39:00.001+08:00

Source:
http://entertainment.uk.msn.com/music/features/gallery.aspx?cp-documentid=7045588&imageindex=1

1) You actually use the headphones that came with your iPod.

2) When asked the best gig you went to recently, you reply 'Glastonbury'.

3) You've bought an 'authentic-looking' band t-shirt from Topman.

4) You think Guns N Roses are a really 'heavy' band.

5) You think gigs that aren't in arenas are 'intimate'.

6) On your Facebook profile you describe your music taste as 'I like a bit of everything really!!!'

7) You think support bands exist purely to give you time to go to the bar.

8) You think Jo Whiley knows what she's talking about.

9) You can't remember the last time you bought a CD...

10) ...But you can remember that AMAZING Leona Lewis song you downloaded the other day.

11) You buy an album because you liked the single, and then skip through all the other tracks just to listen to it.

12) You think people who talk about bands you haven't heard of are pretentious.

Last Night

2009-09-20T10:19:00.002+08:00

Last night, I had this very weird dream. I don't wish to go into detail but it's kindda cool. It's like Me, Some friend, Nagahraj and some friend whom I can't remember who, went on a vacation to this area/land/country where we don't recognise. But the area was kindda cool, theme parks and everything. But one thing I don't understand is, I went back to my hotel room, found one of my friend watching a movie so I watched with him. And then, I dreamt about the movie.

The movie/show/anime-like TV thing is somehow alittle related to Ergo Proxy, because of the use of words like "AutoReivs" and the area settings.

Let me explain the background of the movie in dream, (Note: Everything is NOT real, it's a dream in a dream thing. In addition, some of the mentioned properties might be related to the anime, Ergo Proxy)
In the dream of the dream I'm in, the atmosphere is rather empty, the skies are almost cloudless and the sky instead of our normal light blue or whitish blue sky, it's a standard blue (with little shades of whitish grey) and gradients with dark purplish skies from afar. Night and Day are hard to distinguish since the skies has always been purple or blue. There's no presence of the moon, stars or sun.

Is this Earth? If so how did Earth become like this?
From my assumption, since this dream is related to Ergo Proxy, I guess the Methane Hydrate layer on Earth exploded, later covering the skies, though they don't cloud up they become the "sky" itself.
At one scene I was in, I and abunch of people who I don't know (but they represent certain people in my own real life) came out of a cavern like thingy, In front of us is like an ocean with very little rocks or landforms, but about few kilometers we can see tower-like structures on landforms. But we realised the ocean, despite being so huge that we can't see any main land from where we are, it's freakin' shallow. So basically we can travel across this ocean on foot! The rocks and rubbles around us very reddish or brownish. From my assumption, this rocks must have contained metal properties and due to the the atmosphere they tend to give off the reddish, brownish colour (I don't know if this is true, but I had alot of thinking after I woke up).

We traveled to the nearest tower-like structure I mentioned earlier (and for a moment the ruins looked abit like Singapore's MRT station =D) and some AutoReiv thingy (some shitty robot) from the other tower-like structure come rushing at us and I shouted "SHIT! Auto-Spy!" (I did thinking on that, and I actually wondered why the fuck I said AutoSpy instead of AutoReiv, but I was thinking of AutoPSY while saying it)

Anyways.. anything beyond that dream that happened, I can't tell you here because it's too weird.. this dream has too many background, but I believe it'll come back one day again.

Note to Self:
Who was she?

Note to Self

2009-09-17T20:53:00.000+08:00

Note to Self:

Raison de'tre
I Think, Therefore I Am (Cogito ergo sum)
Want to Try Dying This Once?

Ippen Shindemiru?

2009-09-17T14:59:00.000+08:00

I've been looking around for some stuff to embed onto this blog so that you would stay here long enough to freak yourself out.
I don't think I'll be putting that Pocket Emo application anymore. It's rather troublecome and boring, but I'm trying to find some stuff to freak people who comes to my blog.

The music isn't enough, but anyway I need more cool readers for my blog. I don't know why there isn't much people reading it anyway. Maybe I scared them away.
This isn't my first time blogging though. But I guess I shall make my blog posts much more happier.

I have this feeling I might suffer the same fate as my aunt (the one who passed away last year).
I've Flu, Cold and Cough since last TWO weeks, but it's settling now, ain't so bad. But like my aunt, My body is beginning to ache. Past few days it was the left side of my back that's rather frozen. Today, 17 September 2009, my heart/lung is rather heavy today. If I breath in too deep, my back and chest will hurt. When I jump my heart or lungs (I don't know which) will seem heavy and it'll hurt ALOT if I jump higher. Infact I can't jump higher than an estimated 7 cm of height. I don't know what's happening to my body but I'll let it pass and just pray for some of God's help. Anyway I don't know how I got this body condition. I'm fine and I'm eating well. Maybe it's stress, I don't know.

Something for you to note

2009-09-16T19:55:00.000+08:00

I'll be putting messages that isn't really ment for anyone else, but for myself.
and it'll be in the form of :

Note to Self:

so basically that's something you don't really need to care

Q: why would you read things to yourself anyway? it's a blog, others will read.
A: because I'm too lazy to remember and since I'll be blogging I'll just write them over here

Anyways, I've been watching lots of anime lately. I haven't been studying properly since. But at least I know more than I used to.
I do recommend you guys to watch Ergo Proxy and Jigoku Shoujo. This two anime are very beautiful. Jigoku Shoujo (meaning Hell Girl, and after watching three seasons) almost made me cry. I wanted to cry actually but, I hold my tears because I thought it might be inappropreiate for me to cry like this. But really, the anime endings are the saddest of all and Jigoku Shoujo Mitsuganae (Season 3) 's last few episode was the saddest of all.

I do hope I won't blog as much, I don't wanna be some whore or bitch who really only knows how to rant here and there and do nothing.
This time I guess things over at this blog will be more on the happy stuff I'll introduce you.

I'm back to blogging!

2009-09-16T14:24:00.000+08:00

Note to Self:

Re-l
Ippen Shindemaru?
Raison de'tre

Hey guys!

I'm back.. I don't know how many people are gonna read my blog, But I'mma attract nice and non spamming readers.
I currently have nothing else to do so I improved on my blog

This blog is rather weird to some, I don't care.
I like it this way.

New Again

2009-09-15T22:36:00.001+08:00

New Again